1. |
ZZZ
03:48
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ur gonna b ok
zachariah arrived right before the diagnoses
first came anxiety
second came the psychosis
i dont know when it began to surround me
riding in the passenger in 5th grade
told my dad there's something different bout me
never forgot the look on his face. he said
"goddammit man I'm sorry
I aint mean to give it to you I'm the worst
I ain't even think you'd get it till ur older
my mother had bad bipolar
one second you'll be thinking you're a god
one second you'll be thinking you're a burden
one minute I can be a better guy
wait a minute I can be a better person"
wait slow it down
life's a lot like traffic when you break down
they aint gonna stop n see if you're safe n sound
they just getting pissed off and they go around
they just getting pissed off here I thought the
thought-racing and the pacing
was enough to make me go crazy
till I made up zachariah, zachariah
does not make me
do you
apologize, just to get a peace of mind?
do you
apologize, truly so you can provide
comfort I need,
cause if it's not for me
then that makes sense why you've been giving sorry's out for free
do you
apologize, just to get a peace of mind?
do you
apologize, truly so you can provide
comfort I need,
cause if it's not for me
then that makes sense why you've been giving sorry's out for free (free)
z:
ur gonna be okay, tomorrow is another day go a new way
lifes too short to be sad tonight
you don't gotta listen to the bad advice like
grab a vice!
one time for being sad at life
another time for being bad at life
sometimes I be mad I'm right
other times I'm glad I'm wrong
maybe that's why you make these songs
maybe that's why (???) make these songs
maybe that's why I make these songs.
cleaned my head with medication
ended up like bleach not listerine
z is everything I wanna be
and everything I hate and I'm just stuck in this inbetween
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2. |
Foxtrot
03:35
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yeahhh
turn my headphones up
yeahhh
I played the piano and
then I made this beat
then I wrote some lyrics in my phone (its true)
yeahhh (I was there) yeahhh
meet me up on cloud 9, I don't do the ground beef, I
grind teeth, bury 5 feet and rhyme on fine beats,
fee fi the giant goes dumb fumbles I preach
every week I switch up, ur flow is like assigned seats (sit down)
They aint movin
I sip booze n move like twisted sick illusions
you still try to prove it what I spew already proven
they aint got the soul or step, I'm a shoe-in
I'm like
quentin tarantino with the toes to tap
yet my flow is so slow so I don't go too fast, cause I would
race ahead, never make amends, maybe make a friend, and
make you bend backwards all before you ever made the end
of it, shove it up ur ass or love it I never flub it
let's make a covenant you'll never not not touch it
triple negative, I neck a couple sedatives, they begging me to please em till I choke em like their fetishes (nasty lil moan)
I'm not well read I'm not a novelty book, I got em to look
a goblin spittin gobbledygook (it's me)
take a knee ur in the presence of the anthem
i have her hitting high notes like operas (I'm a phantom)
(this man said a phantom)
and this is the part where I uhhhh I freestyle a hook, cause
not enough of my songs have a hook
I'm not sorry..... bleh
ur the shit I don't like (chief keef sosa)
girls who are rich and white (cheap mimosas)
better sit tight (3 seat sofa)
I don't do the fist fights (I pop like a soda)
ur the shit I don't like (chief keef sosa)
girls who are rich and white (cheap mimosas)
bitch better sit tight (3 seat sofa)
I don't do the fist fights (get popped like a soda)
rap like I'm smoking rock and on the clock as time is ticky
tockin and I'm rockin in my socks and pairs of birkenstocks
raising all the stakes like stocks and filling stockings with a
shocking little option a glock, get to pop-locking
I could make a god stop you chickens getting cock-blocked
change flavs never die everlasting gobstop
you couldn't get a slot, not
even if you got Fox
news to snooze hotshot
get to steppin Foxtroooot
I could do this in my sleep I'm too facetious a beast to beat I take the lead they're on leashes
You fruity loops with no labor picked the wrong peaches
other rappers break and I don't even have an off season
I'm steady treading most are holding noses hoping they float
I hope they're a joke
they full of talk and probably choking (bleh)
they need emergency boats
I write with the same pen as Murder, She Wrote
Speak into the mic like Karen speaks to managers
pissed off, messy, still pushing like a janitor
all these amateurs hoping that the flow tight,
you know it don't though and that's why ur the shit I d-
ur the shit I don't like (chief keef sosa)
girls who are rich and white (cheap mimosas)
better sit tight (3 seat sofa)
I don't do the fist fights (I pop like a soda)
ur the shit I don't like (chief keef sosa)
girls who are rich and white (cheap mimosas)
(bleep) better sit tight (3 seat sofa)
I don't do the fist fights (get popped like a soda)
(((chief keef sosa,
witcho girls who are rich and white
mosas, mosas, on ur bodda bip blahhhh
sofa, sofa, sodda, sodda on the so-fuck)))
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3. |
Psychhhward
03:08
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okay
sip a couple liquid liver killers till I'm sicker than a fuckin junky
and fight you drunken monkey style if I'm feeling lucky
eyes googly (googly) I do believe
I slay you like you gettin dragged queen after fuckin buffy
in other words in the eyes of buddah I'm not about it
rich and famous tend to pretend to be Taoist, man I doubt it
my brain is split like apartheid, I'm done forcing lines and
joining vader on the dark side.
My eyes heavy and my brain fried the work of life sucks but it pays fine
I could make a train wreck out of middle of mall train rides
and end your life on a low note to hear the bass line
these haters thirsty
they never find the punchline
and even if they do they're too impatient
so face it
you nosey eyesores, afford ears but need a face lift
they never see the vision need lasiks
psychedelics in the psychward
what, what the fuck I need my mind for?
what the fuck I need my mind for?
psychedelics in the psychward
what, what the fuck I need my mind for?
live, live, lu-, lu-, lu-, lu-, live, live, live (fuck it)
live from the psychward stolen off the typewriter
wearing tye dye while doing drive by's in TIE Fighters
I'm a skywalker, killing off a youngin nothing,
but I'm young and up and coming cause up disruption up in
every function, a bonafide bonehead
I'll force feed you acid then I'll make you watch the coneheads
who's your two favorite rappers cause I'm making sure they both dead
I'll call em overrated, run em over with my moped
asserting names and keeping baggage
burning strains of reefer madness
mr rapping apparatus at your
service burning these verses inside a furnace
getting cremated man do we hate it when your mic's working
I'm a plumber how I give her pipe service
spitting acid lysergic, why you tripping ric flair
(man you really do care), they should call me mr. perfect
I been thinking bout taking over earth it aint worth it
psychedelics in the psychward
what, what the fuck I need my mind for?
what the fuck I need my mind for?
I mean honestly, what the fuck I need my mind for?
psychedelics in the psychward
what the, what the fuck I need my mind for?
ya'll a bunch of eyesores...
fuck u...
(in ur fucking slides x5)
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4. |
Go(gh)
02:19
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ye
ye ye
(this ones just for fun)
(shout out tuhhhhh)
(shout out to Andy Warhol)
(&&& Van Gooogh)
123 ye
123 ye ye ye ye
12
12
11
feelin like i'm van gogh
only half listenin
vincent idiotic I been like this since an infant
yall could never see me
lookin with the minds eye
got the hoodie-mask combo (lookin)
whipping like I'm shy guy, I find
absolutely none of you amusing or your bitches bad and boujee
your life a trailer it's not a movie
took the lucy just to cross my t's and dot my eyes
my philosophies would never even cross your mind
cross me if the time is right and you'll be crucifed
anyday, anytime, anyway....
I'm lookin like a walking talking steven hawking
getting all of your opinions off of twitter must be so exhausting
observe myself, and annotate it over beats that sound like manic phases
man I really am the greatest no debating it
I'm getting bucks, basic bitch
stars couldn't rate this shit,
nah 5 planets is more fitting
I'm orbiting, couldn't digest this in 4 sittings
(bar none)
32 leaving em frozen bitch
I'm on one
(similar to how hit artist, Aubrey Graham, aka Drake, expressed his feelings for being "on one", on the first track of DJ Khaled's 2011 album, "We The Best Forever", called "I'm On One")
3,4
Anyday anytime anyway whatever you say
Anyday anytime anyway whatever you say
Anyday anytime anyway whatever you say
Anyday anytime anyway
no poetic, so pathetic, old phonetic rhymes
hope for rain, thoughts and prays, hope for better times
in some ways we all break beliefs that we had on sunday
I must say, money aint gon make itself on monday
I'm sure the molly-poppin models feel the love on some days
man this 9-5 is fucking up my fung shui
caught that rain I was hoping for what a fun day
I caught the train and made it one way
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5. |
FILTER111
01:34
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this track originally had raps but i like this version better lmao
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6. |
19CrimesFreestyle
02:58
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yeah
yeah
yeah yeah yeah yeah
turn it up in my
in my headphones
yeah, yeah, 19
19 crimes down the gullet
he cocks it and pulls it, full of
bullshit, if you keep it real, he is phony as fuck
see the key to life's to play it like thelonious monk
ya gotta dig it to dig, ya dig?
19 crimes down the gullet
he cocks it and pulls it, and if you
don't give a shit about him, you're shit out of luck
see the key to life's to play it like thelonious monk
ya gotta dig it to dig, ya dig?
yeah
yeah
yeah yeah yeah
dyed my hair and got the studs with hoops
i'm idiotic who the fuck are you?
babygirl with bobcut called me cute
spit it like dr seuss
hit it and chuck a deuce
nah im playin
I'm lying I copped her a dinner
I been a sinner
since in the egg and since kinder
garden I hardly contend to be human
I'm more like a martian
breathing this arson
firing at your department, art been
better than ever I'm painting these pictures
pablo picasso go vicious with visions
purple and pink
fuck what they think
chasing these dreams and chase it with liquor
that's the kicker
used to be a nobody
now I'm just a homebody
making moves tho shout to Kusco
spit like a llama and too funny
you claim to be about getting money got a
beer belly in your early 20's I'm like
22 and yet I feel 40
you think you smart cause you watch rick n morty
bitch I'm doing 85 bumping gwen stefani
fruit of loom to rocking boxers tommy
till i crash n burn like a kamikaze
cuffing goth girls and emo thotties
couldn't kill me with a silver bullet
in the birds box no sandra bullock
red wine, down the gullet thats
19 19 19 yuh
19 crimes down the gullet
he cocks it and pulls it, full of
bullshit, if you keep it real, he is phony as fuck
see the key to life's to play it like thelonious monk
ya gotta dig it to dig, ya dig?
19 crimes down the gullet
he cocks it and pulls it, and if you
don't give a shit about him, you're shit out of luck
see the key to life's to play it like thelonious monk
ya gotta dig it to dig, ya dig?
(that's one take)
(yeah, ya, yahhhhhh)
(19, 19, 19, 19)
*chance the rapper noise*
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7. |
Agoraphobia
03:05
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(one take this)
i pen this letter
to my home studio
you're my best friend
and even better partner
u listen and u let my mind departure
after hard days so everyday you would let me stay inside
anytime I need to hide
and you don't ever seem to judge me
long as I'm close you keeping me comfy
and I thank you for
that that that
I don't wanna go
back back back
outside to the world uncertain
so inside is where I stay
at, at
thank you for
that, that
I don't wanna go
back, back
outside to the world uncertain
so inside is where I stay
at, at, at
dear studio
I don't really know
that although you help me
if you're really healthy
I should go outside
I mean really tho
I could, I could also
avoid human interaction and keep my passion
for making art never backspun
that and
never embarassed never caring about my actions
crash, never relax, and you won't ever react and
all my windows have blinds
and I barely look at the time
but I'm gucci like my eyebags
looking at the red flags
knowing that you'll never leave my side (no)
friends said our relationship is toxic
but fuck em I got you and got no other options
(got no, fuck)
that that that
I don't wanna go
back back back
outside to the world uncertain
so inside is where I stay
at, at
thank you for
that, that
I don't wanna go
back, back
outside to the world uncertain
so inside is where I stay
at, at, at
(fuck that)
( i sit inside and....
when ur alone for that long...
your brain starts to find problems
and a lot of those problems aren't even really there.
it's hard to be isolated and not contemplate.
I cant even open my window anymore
I cant
I'm a studio rat
It's myself, I, and zachariah
sitting inside, figuring it out, pondering.)
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8. |
S(killed)
03:51
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(if u think being crazy is what made van gogh skilled
just know that being crazy is what got that man killed
if u think being crazy is what made van gogh skilled
just know that being crazy is what got that man killed)
yo yo
since 5 i have tried to be great but i think that
I thought too much and got a late start
there's this rhetoric that's been around forever that I hate
that you must suffer to make great art.
I often wonder if there's any truth about it
could I put this album out if I was grounded tho? I highly doubt it.
but that's just one of my flaws
but If i'm gone there's no art of mine at all.
so if u think being crazy is what made van gogh skilled
just know that being crazy is what got that man killed
if u think being crazy is what made van gogh skilled
just know that being crazy is what got that man killed
i told em
i told em
doctor, doctor, nurse
z has gotten worse
this is not the first time
nor is it the last
so i ask, that you help me out it hurts
I wanna feel the earth, I wanna feel my worth
I suffer from the birth of Zachariah's curse.
They felt I needed meds
my stomach and my head was all I ever felt instead
a sick twisted irony I felt the least alive
but honestly I felt kinda free
close to nothing at all
I couldve free falled off the tallest building of all
and felt the same way I felt when watching the sun set
an inbetween of apathy, tired, and upset.
so if u think being crazy is what made van gogh skilled
just know that being crazy is what got that man killed
if u think being crazy is what made van gogh skilled
just know that being crazy is what got that man killed
z:
can I talk to em?
z
pain is your vehicle for greatness don't crash it
your abstract, jazz rap, crap has made you batshit
and that don't make you great
matter facts for starters
depression made making art a thousand times harder
excessively obsessive
no food or sleep until your snares are at perfection
stop, get to eating
sleep, get your dreams in
mental illness is not synonymous with genius
whether it's in your genes
or whether you lost hope
you don't get to choose what the world finds dope, so
put it out as if a single soul deserves it
you might find the imperfections make em think it's perfect
if these walls could talk you would give em a fake laugh
and claim that you do not have any baggage
just know that what you make, only you can create
I promise that you're anything but average
<3
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9. |
FILTER222
02:46
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let me out
let me out
let me out
let me out, every
every time I find a way out
I just find another way back in
let me out, let me out
let me let me out
let me let me out out
let me let me out
let me let me out
let me out
let me let me out
let me let me out
let me let me out
yo cousin got a soundcloud?
none of that shit new to me
pulling out the tommy like quit the tomfoolery
nothing you could do to me
or who believes in what could
make me give a fuck would, you believe that I'm
bored so I'm stacking bread and cheese charcuterie?
how rude of me I'm idiotic, I aint catch ya name
it don't even matter you comparing and complaining
and just blaming everything on everything but
you, fuck you, cut to, me doing, what I,
do best, no flex, or else, hoes get
stressed out, stretched out, bo flex, woah lets
pause for a second and just find a common
factor
you act out even though I'm the actor
you want beef? we can take it out to pasture
and pass all the bullshit over with a tractor
salty as fuck messing with the wrong cracker
I doubt have a doubt
that none of these rappers have a thing figured out
I'm stuck in my head and stuck putting it out so
fuck it lemme lemme out, idiotic
let me out, let me out
let me let me out
let me let me out out
let me let me out
let me let me out
idiotic
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10. |
Cluttter
02:54
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lurrrics:
I could run away and never tell my fears
maybe some day, I won’t wanna disappear
I can’t keep my head clear …
we could run away and never tell our fears
maybe some day, we won’t wanna disappear
I can’t keep my head clear
(too much clutter)
voice in my head
keeping him close, I
been isolated, who
gon tell me how to cope, uh
idiotic doesn’t know, uh
shocker shocker, eyes low uh
…If I go insane, it won’t go in vain
self-medicated, off the novacane
please keep me under as I sit and wonder.. under the
stars the same routine
I’m making my
art
and making believe, I
spin, I spend, I cook and clean
all in
attempt to know what it means, but
Loving and living is free
except for the food that’s a dollar or 3
That and the lease
now you want peace?
not in the least, you heard it from me
Sipping my
tea
Looking at skies
loosen yo tie, do some tai chi
wish I was fine, but I would be lying, I
do this for nieces and family tree
…artist type I can’t verbalize I just
stutter
…all my thoughts are just like my room, full of
clutter
, life is just waiting till summer,
life is just loving and suffering seeing what
we can discover, an angel in some and a beast in another these
pallets of color are plenty for others, then
others get greedy and ask for another (so
fuck it I’m done)
… where do you hide? (hide)
… where do you run? (run)
… where do I find my conclusions?
… not in learning institutions
… not myself I been a nuisance
… not in others, too confusing
… what am I, doing?
… what am I, doing?
… what am I, doing?
… what am I?
(instrumental break)
I could run away and never tell my fears
maybe some day, I won’t wanna disappear
I can’t keep my head clear …
we could run away and never tell our fears
maybe some day, we won’t wanna disappear
I can’t keep my head clear
(too much clutter)
credits
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11. |
Cofffeee
04:53
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Sorry if you lost me
My attention span has been killing them off softly
Should I kill myself or should I have a cup of coffee?
should I kill myself or should I have a cup of coffee? I'm so
sorry if you lost me
My attention span has been killing them off softly
Should I kill myself or should I have a cup of coffee?
should I kill myself or should I have a cup of coffee? please
VERSE:
Weigh your
options, get the contents, you keep in
stock then, sip the daily concoction
Wake up weigh your options again
find balance, the grounds to water ratio,
weighing next to nothing
body only full of toxins,
, The starving
artist isn’t pretty when you find him, I
promise, he’s passive in passing, but to
himself he’s painfully honest,
and lately too nice,
swallow pride like shoenice
need a new prescription, my pupils moving I’m losing sight
, self proclaiming doofus, they told me to keep it moving
now I keep it moving, I’m moving
I’m always pacing.. that
ADHD diagnosis waiting I’m impatient
I’m just another human remembering my placement
…on this earth, tell em they should know they worth
(how fucking hypocritical, how and in what universe, are
you the center, you aint better, are you making cheddar?) no.
only rap to mitigate imposter syn-drome.
((Chorus))
Sorry if you lost me
My attention span has been killing them off softly
Should I kill myself or should I have a cup of coffee
should I kill myself or should I have a cup of coffee, I'm so
sorry if you lost me
My attention span has been killing them off softly
Should I kill myself or should I have a cup of coffee
should I kill myself or should I have a cup of coffee please
((VERSE 2))
.... Please hold my head when it's heavy, I told my
Self that I'm ready, and in an effort to make me a comma, I
make these songs that are too alarming for momma to listen to when I'm bothered
What good is honesty then? If I'm
Surrounded by friends, but feeling lonely don't end, is every
Time that I smile another time I pretend? (I guess)
I send regards if what I pen does offend, but if my
pen is not a weapon, then swords will be swung instead…
sippin it
slow, then way too
quick, I keep my head way too
sick, another day
wasted, and way too
lit, need a
vacation, my brain fried, but at the
Same time, I need to make time, but I don't
Have time so I waste more,
Pace back and then pace forth (Pace back and then pace forth)
... and I'm still sorry if you lost me ... but my attention span has been fucking me up softly
The pot is full, the
Kettles black, back the fuck up off me
End of day I'm pouring up the blackest cup of coffee
(Bridge)
Too much coffee in the pot, and
Too much pot will keep me coughing (x4)
(Final Verse/Outro)
The doctor told me exercise my mind like my
Noggin is joggin'
Life's a slippery slope I'm just riding in
Toboggans, If I go bananas I'm gon make it a
Bonanza, if I'm on a downward spiral I might as well throw my hands up ...
and what's a good ol manic phase without a crash reaction
Acting like it's just a Saturday..
sit and wonder all my life, I wonder what it cost me
Another constant, another vice...another cup of coffee please
thank you.
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